| From: | that frolicsome kid |
| To: | Whom this may concern |
| Date: | 8 March 2008, 20:59 |
| Subject: | Piano Dilemma |
I'm going nowhere in Grade 8. My confidence in piano is non-existent. My self-esteem in music playing hits an all-time low. I can't even be bothered to practice anymore. I forgot most of my theory in music and thus, I doubt I can even pass Grade 8 Theory if I were to sit for it this November.
My piano teacher is so going to be torn into pieces if she were to know I want to give piano a break. She will be extremely disappointed and disgusted by my "rash decisions", and it will all be my fault.
The manuscripts of the exam pieces freak me out. Huge chords scare me. Sight-reading is extremely intimidating. There are too many black dots, too few rests and white space. I don't think I can handle Grade 8 anymore. I can't even satisfy the minimum requirements anymore.
I don't want to make music (as in instruments) a part of my life anymore. I want to lose that identity because it's no longer me. It feels like a foreign debris lodged into my soul. And the worse thing is I'm so "far" into music now, I am "not expected" to stop, and let everything go to waste.
I'm so sorry. =( I wished I could be better, but I'm not acting on my words. It just isn't my interest anymore. And I don't know how to put this forward to her, who has selflessly imparted to me musical skills for about a decade. I'm sorry, I really am. I don't want to hurt her feelings. And I don't know what to do now... I just can't go for piano lessons anymore.
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Comments (303):
Date:14/3/08 07:08
Why give up now?
I hated piano in my last few years of school and am now glad I carried on. I think it's such a useful skill.
Date:14/3/08 22:22
Hey Topchamp! I do have a few reasons to answer your question.
1. Lack of interest, which leads to lack of motivation.
2. For a Grade 8 pianist, I am extremely bad. I can't sight read. I can't perform in public. It takes me a long time to play a piece adequately. Besides, even a Grade 5 pianist can outplay me! In other words, I just plain suck.
3. I didn't put in effort into practising. I mean, yeah, I'll probably pass but what is the point if I don't give it a 100%? I would just take the exams, pass it and not touching the piano for the rest of my life. So I can't see the point anymore.
4. I cannot dedicate a part of my life to music anymore if I'm not playing my part. I've found other priorities and interests, and I would like to pursue those further. I can't just do everything; I'll be extremely overwhelmed.
5. I am sick of music.
And that's why I just want to stop. Or at the very least, take a break from it.
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